The Tension And The Terror

A look,
A laugh,
A smile,
A second passes by and i regret it.
Words just aren't right.
Sometimes i just can't explain
All the ways you devastate me-
Always on my mind.

-straylight run

And We'll Paint Over The Evidence

i think. im headed straight for the ground this time.
no crash webbing.
no parachute.
just burning a trail into the sky.

I'll Be Outside, Waiting For You

The boy huddled in the corner of his frosted glass cell, thinking. He knew he wanted her but she wasnt responding anymore. So the hope that someone would be able to drag him out of the shithole that he was stuck in for a long time would be yet again dissolved. Her constant optimism, behind the frosted glass, was blurred, so beautiful. But out of reach, and would almost never be his to hold, to cherish. He would be doomed to depression, and probably die of blood loss. Because he really felt that there was nothing to live for. True, he probably had a bright future: making money, marrying a woman, starting a family and so on and so forth, but the truth was it would be too mundane. No one would be able to be truly happy in a world that was overly screwed up with political conflicts and ideological clashes. Skirmishes and assasinations did not make things easier for his frazzled mind, either. The cell made things look even worse, as he could not understand the reason for such happenings; the glass making every connection hazy, indistinct.
He took out a long-forgotten acquaintance, undecided, not sure whether to meet his razor sharp friend again.
He couldnt see what else to do, or what to think.
He cries, in vain.



Oh i wrote that story in GP class today. cos i was inestimably bored. LOL.

Crash and Burn?

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
some days i get so high i can fly.

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
but some days are just days that are meant to suck.

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
and you come crashing back to the ground.

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
and it really hurts.

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
when you strike the cold hard pavement?

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
i think im in a freefall now.

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
no idea whether some updraft is gonna catch me and send me back up?

tool sheds and hot tubs says:
or gravity is just gonna pull mercilessly on me.

toolsheds and hot tubs says:
and cause an unmistakable splat on the granite road.


toolsheds and hot tubs is me in case you didnt know already. xD

Sympathy for the Martyr

well its been 3 days since school has reopened.
watching all those j1 kids running around so happily reminds me of the days spent in ac. funny how i always wanted to leave ac for vj, but have ended up missing the place so much. sometimes i wonder what would have happened if i stayed there after pae..
well i wouldnt have gotten this far if i stayed i guess. haha.

two basketball trainings in a week, and the whole team is dying already. our muscles ache and cramp up, coupled with stitches for two days, plus shooting over 400 baskets in one training. its a wonder we havent collapsed in fatigue yet with all the physical trainings added in. but well, I CAN RUN A DECENT 2.4 TIMING NOW :D

im so affected by the world right now, i think im mildly depressed. all these fucked up things in the world like assasinations, political wars ecetera ecetera, is really getting to me. why cant all these fucked up adults just set aside prejudices and THEIR FUCKING LOVE OF POWER SO THAT THIS WORLD CAN BE A BETTER PLACE? why intervene in the provision of cheap laptops when it can help so much children to break out of the vicious cycle their life is? why must they intervene when a country wants independence? why start wars when they already know that THEIR PEOPLE WOULD SUFFER ANYWAY? why cant the adults see that, by protecting their own interests, they're actually hurting us, their future? why. why? does anyone have an answer?
somedays, i dont feel like living anymore. and it sucks.