I Drowned Out All My Sense With The Sound Of Its Beating

i guess ive been thinking alot lately.
i've thought so much about how im hurting. about what i could do to end it.
thing is i guess i dont wanna think about such things anymore.
because thinking hurts. i'll go insane if my situation worsens and i dont wanna be insane.

im gonna live. im gonna live and the reason for my living is for my best friends in this world; for minghao and aloysius (no position of merit lol.) im gonna live and make them as happy as possible in my company. im gonna lift them up if they're sad.
im not gonna live for myself anymore because i'm too hurt and battered to do so.
IM GONNA LIVE.
EVERYONE HEAR ME LOUD AND CLEAR.
IM GONNA LIVE SO THAT I CAN MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY.
WATCH ME, WORLD.
WATCH OVER ME, LORD.
IM GONNA LIVE.
AGAIN.