There's A Pulse And Its Deafening.

basketball friendly against cjc today. not bad we won them 52-32 but it was mostly tianwei's doing lol. he prolly scored like 30 points or something haha.
i only got 1 rebound and 1 assist ): oh well at least i forced a few turnovers haha. GOTTA IMPROVE though. T_T


i never saw anyone hit another person in cold blood. but i did today. and it was kinda shocking cos we all thought he was playing around. but he wasnt. which brings me back to a question ive pondered over countless of times but have never gotten an answer.

why cant people take jokes when its pointed at them?

i mean, its not really a big deal if its done in the spirit of fun and everybody is laughing.
is it?

sigh.
i really want you.

DIE, ASSHOLE

COCKROACH VS SHIELDTOX.
ITS A NO CONTEST.

THATS WHAT YOU GET IF YOU CREEP UP ON ME WHEN IM READING MY BOOK, YOU STUPID BUGFUCK.

SHIELDTOX FTW!

Emo Boy

A guy, usually between the ages of 15-30, who listens to emo music and have many of the characteristics commonly affiliated with emo people. They usually have semi-long jet black hair that covers about 1/3 of their face (including one of their eyes), may or may not wear eyeliner, and wear rather tight clothing, including tight jeans and tight shirts/sweaters, usually band merchandise. Many also have studded belts, and tend to like Converse or Vans shoes. Now, about their personality. They usually have a bit of a feminine personality, expressing feelings quite openly, and not really caring about how "tough" they are, as most average guys do. Many are artistically talented, and like to write poetry and songs, or even draw/paint. It is often stereotyped that emo boys cut themselves, but actually, most don't. Those that do, though, do NOT do it simply for attention. They do it because of actual emotional issues they're dealing with. Otherwise they're simply emo posers. They more often than not are very nice and respectful towards other people. However, most likely they would not be respected by many guys since upon first glance they'll think they're gay. In fact, most emo boys are NOT gay. Sure, some might be, but more often than not, they're either bi or just straight. Emo boys get along very well with girls for this reason, as girls not only share many of their views, but are also undeniably attracted to them. - taken off urbandictionary.com I wish that last sentence was true. sigh.

The More I Try To Look Away The more I'm Staring

The boy watched the object of his adoration from afar, and reflected bitterly upon his utter inability to make her his own.

i hate this feeling.

Her Conscience Calls The Guilty To Come Home

training today was okay but i need to improve.
AND MY STAMINA STILL SUCKS.

Hand Of Blood

im getting inexorably drawn closer and closer to something that i dont believe im ready for so soon. ignoring it doesnt work and i dont want to taste that bitterness yet again if it doesnt work once more.
i think it has something to do with boredom but i havent coped with boredom since secondary 3. which seems like ages ago.
oh help me please. i dont know what to do.

So Lay Roses Around You

its really really bad when you know you aren't good at a single shit in life.
and its worse when you realize that you cant do a thing about it.

It's not enough.

ive probably wasted months. and the feeling totally sucks when you let donwn countless of people.
i almost cut myself again.