Saturday, October 04, 2008

Its 4 In The Morning And I'm Pissed Off So Dont Mess With Me.

Enough. Is. Fucking. Enough.
Dont you fucking get it? Your opinions dont matter anymore. It never had, ever since i realized that i dont want to be stuck in this fucking household anymore. Ever since i realized that being a little better than average like both of you are is not where i want to be. I detest this fucking shithole im living in, so fuck you both. I have my opinions and I know where I stand - not where both of you have fucking placed me. Im not one of those fucktards that's gonna end up with a pissy BCC for their A levels; I'm already getting two A's and near B's FOR MY FUCKING PRELIMS. And both of you dont realize that do you? Both of you obviously think that one can only do well if you get straight A's. Well fuck you both. Neither of you made it to a junior college, so YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE DAMN SYSTEM. SO STOP FUCKING GIVING ME ADVICE YOU BACKSEAT DRIVERS. I HAVE A BRAIN, ONE THAT IS DEFINITELY TWICE THE CAPACITY TO THINK AND TWICE THE POTENTIAL TO SUCCED THAN BOTH OF YOU COMBINED.
IM FUCKING BETTER THAN YOU.
I KNOW IM FUCKING BETTER THAN YOU TWO PUT TOGETHER.
SO LEAVE ME ALONE. I KNOW WHEN TO PERFORM - I PROVED THAT FOR MY PRELIMS DIDN'T I? BUT AT USUAL BOTH OF YOU NEGLECTED TO FUCKING OPEN YOUR EYES - YOU JUST JUDGE BASED ON YOUR PETTY PRECONCEPTIONS WHICH ARE TOTALLY IRRELEVANT IN THE SYSTEM IN PLACE.

i swear when i'm 21, i'd take the trust money you invested and i'll run away with it. sure, might sound like im stealing money. but it was meant to be mine - all those things that you never bought for me went in that fund you have for me. all the playstations, gameboys; all those material wants that a kid needed in his childhood to ensure a healthy relationship with his parents. but you didnt give them to me. at best, you provided some, but compared to what other kids got, it was never enough. so dont solely blame me for making this into an unhealthy relationship - you created this monster that is living in me. so you just have to live with it. so scratch all those previous blog entries about loving my parents and whatnot. it's a fucking lie, as of today. take it that im coerced into living with two of the blindest idiots in the world, and pray that 3 years would fly by for me. because i REALLY CANT STAND THEM ANYMORE.

im gonna run away and create my own fortunes myself. and both of you wont get a single piece of recognition. to say that both of you never played a part in my life would be narrow-minded and obviously wrong, but neither of you ever contributed to my development into the celebrity that im gonna become.

watch me. because i dont need either of you to believe in my potential. i just have to believe in myself.