I Think I Really Had To Wish To Make This Last

prom shopping today im dead beat.
went in and out of zara and ck like a tempestous cloud, looking for the perfect prom suit.
finally decided on a zara one with pedro shoes.
by then it was already 9pm doh.
but i still have to alter my pants disgusting.
they dont have the size for my thighs grr.

cant wait for prom!

My Eyes Are Fading; My Soul Is Bleeding

48 hours in Singapore and i really cannot stand the weather.

been a pretty tiring first two days back so far. basketball on both days after a 8 days hiatus and now my knees and ankles are aching like mad. and i still have to play soccer tmr i think with my sec 4 class wheee. cant wait to see every one again and talk cock like mad OMG.

i swear i miss jarren's jokes, christopher's blasting laughter, gautam's cool, gavin's mat-like behaviour, enghwee and his antics.. and the list goes on. i'd kill to be in the same class as them for one more day again.

funny how two years has just flown by. two years ago, i was celebrating the end of the O's. now its the end of the A's OMG. two years later i'd be out of NS preparing for university, four more years till the Masters, then prolly 2 years after that i'd be considering marriage.

time is galloping by as i type.

so apprehensive about the future.
so alone.

Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Use Me As You Will; Pull My Strings Just For A Thrill

so after seven eventful days in Japan im back in sunny Singapore.

Japan was AWESOME.

the scenery, the food, the service.

not gonna do a day to day update cos i think its gonna be boring, but i DO wanna thank joell and gabriel for being so nice to accompany me to disneyland and making it fun. and i also do wanna thank my 5 friends for being such sports and making the trip more fun than one could ever enjoy if he were with parents.

photos on facebook soon. really nice photos of scenery and stuff haha.

and oh people ive bought stuff for you! had one hand-carry luggage full of stuff to give away and i think i spent more on my friends than on myself. im nice :D

have a nice day people!

To Be Loved, To Be Loved; What More Could You Ask For?

So the A's are finally over! :D
shall not blog about how the papers were etc cause they're OVER. i did them once and i'll never touch them again. EVER. 2 years of mindless chionging in a green uniform here i come! on the 7th of january that is. but i digress.

so the first hours spent as a free man was with my classmates watching daniel craig and his posse in Quantum of Solace, which was quite okay. it was dark but had shades of paradox in it. like how the seemingly unflappable Bond displayed his suppressed human feelings of love and pain through certain gestures and actions that to some may be irrelevant and pointless to the movie. but i thought it was great haha. (in case you dont understand what im talking about, im typing this at 6am in the morning and i havent slept for 24 hours and counting. my typing's messed up too lol)

then i spent the next few hours with one of my best mates, and looked around at stuff to generate ideas for prom outfit till i couldnt walk anymore, then proceeded to stuff my guts with carl's junior and their delectably sour pickles (i doubt delectably turns up on dictionary.com but i dont really care at this time.). wilfred had a nice time trying to cause me to be down with diabetes, but i heroically refrained from drinking iced lemon tea laced with copious amounts of sugar syrup, although the first few mouthfuls was quite.. nice. niesceeeeee.

now that the A's are over i guess there shouldnt be any more depressive bouts and emo outbreaks, should there?

on another note, i know i whine a lot people. just bear with me will you. i mean its good for you people that you're so damn sure about everything you're doing and you're comfortable with everything you've got. but im not, just give me time to sort things out.

i wanna return to the days in secondary four, where i was so sure of where i was heading in my life. VJC, then scholarship, then $125000/year job. guess when i headed to SAJC, i lost that direction and drive that i used to have.

oh, im off to japan with my friends as part of my post A's celebrations. 19th-26th, so dont organise any outings then! kawaii-land whee