Move Along Just To Make It Through

you try to rationalize relationships; evaluating, comparing, complaining. but in the end the heart wants the heart wants. no matter how many times it's been hurt by the same person.

i understand how my church leaders felt now. how standing idly by sucks. how when it comes to matters of the heart, the smartest people become stupid.

i pray things turn out well for you.

Hello The End Is Near

teenage angst although i'm a teenager no more.

FUCKOFFWORLD.

100th Post!

didnt expect this blog to last so long.

slacking around every day has turned my brain and body into mush. days and night blend together oh so confusingly, such that my body doesn't know when to shut down anymore. hopefully the turn of the new year brings more work events, so that i can have some normalcy in my life back.

only things that make me feel human are
1. gym
2. talking with people
3. basketball
4. clubbing/drinking
and last but not least 5. worship

everything else seems mundane. everything else is just another activity to pass time.
everything else just blanks out any lingering pain inside.
5 parties in a row starting from wednesday this week. think my legs will give way by the time monday limps in lol.

Boys Don't Cry

why do i feel like crying when i hear the chorus in this song.
oh the irony.

And When You Smile

i think maybe its time to let them know im gonna move on.
maybe the turn of the year is the best time.

after yet another fiasco, im staying single. relationships just dont make sense anymore. not when you're barely twenty-one, when we should be having fun instead of sticking to the same person for the next fifty years.

I'll Send You My Love On A Wire

im really pissed at the pretentious, self-absorbed people on facebook, changing their facebook status every five minutes, putting up the most pretentiously annoying statements on facebook.

i don't know whether they're trying to look cool by dissing everything or everyone or tell the whole world that they are better than the rest because obviously they're not.

You Were Already You And I Already Me

yet another phase in my life is coming to an end.
why do I keep feeling that nothing has changed?
I feel like the same neurotic emo kid of two years ago. but maybe just a little less idealistic.
I feel so much but yet so little at the same time.

and I'm only a quarter way through my life.