She Looked Out Of The Window And She Saw A Lonely Bird Flying Away From Love Lost.

so something i should've done a long time ago has finally been resolved. not that im proud that i took so long, but i do have to apologise once again for leading you on.

so i was thinking whehter i should get into another relationship again, and i realized that no matter how lonely i was, i didnt want to jump straight into things, without considering whether the person was right for me. because i didnt want another failed relationship and i didnt want to go through all that break up shit again. call me a commitment-phobe - i dont care. it might be lame to you but you wouldnt understand. not yet, anyway. i hope you never do.

i sincerely hope im not gonna drown in my misery yet again. because im really down and the imminent exams arent helping. getting a D for physics sucks too, but its not on the same level.

my heart aches.
but its not for anyone.
its aching for me to live again.