My Heart Belongs To You My Angel

been in a pensive mood ever since my parents dropped a bomb on me telling me that this year's christmas was to be spent alone at home.

so this is in line with the contemplative mood i've been in for the week so far.

5 things you wished you would do but are too lazy to
5. learn a cool foreign language
4. learn computer stuff like html
3. learn the guitar
2. enjoy running/jogging
1. work out

5 things you wished you weren't ignorant about/in
5. travel destinations
4. films
3. art
2. indie stuff
1. great literature

10 things you would like to say to anyone in your life/things you regret saying
10. nah i'll never get depression
9. i'm sorry i broke your heart then
8. i dont love you anymore (but i dont now, really)
7. i'm really terrified of the future because its me against the big bad world
6. you two are the bestest best friends one could ever have
5. you're the best teacher-now-friend i've ever known and i really appreciate all that you've done for me. i just hope i dont let you down come march
4. let's not lie to each other anymore. if you admit it then i would too.
3. i'm sorry i led you on
2. i'm sorry i slapped you

number 1 is missing because.